This is Going to be My Year

2022 is going to be a good year?

How many times have we said that to ourselves, this is going to be my year?

I have said that to myself every year since I turned 21 and began adulting in this lifetime of mines. We make all these New Year resolutions that we keep for at least the first month of the year, and then we fall back into the same old habits again. We break these promises to ourselves, expecting others to keep their promises to us.

We need to learn how to stop making vows to ourselves and take one day at a time and focus on our internal healing. Focus on raising your vibrations each day a little higher, and when you begin to do that, you will see the changes you want to make in this life.

When I first met my husband, I was terrified. I was scared about what people would say if they found out about his race and my peers' look upon me. I would get excited and so full of energy to be with him, and I was planning out our future after two months. Stupid! But he would speak to me in a calming tone, "One day at a time."

That stuck with me, for no one had ever said that to me. No man had ever told me to be patient but give me empty promises. I took that saying and began applying it to all areas of my life.

Slowly I began to let go of so many useless things in life, and if that meant people, so be it. I had to be happy, and I had to do this myself. I began to hear people talking about me and trying to make up their excuses about my reasoning to be with someone outside my race. But see, I had broken a vow to myself that I would never marry a white man. I had to apologize to the universe for giving what I needed, not what I wanted, and I began to understand the meaning of so many things.

I stopped making promises to myself, and I began doing what I needed for that day to bring joy and fulfillment into my life. I focused on a different aspect of my life, and I chose to prioritize and come out of breaking vows to myself.

2022 will be an excellent year for us, spiritually, emotionally, for every day, we will stop being silent and begin to understand what we need in our lives, and we will make it happen.